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I am seventeen years of age and you more than most likely have already began to question as to why I would start to mess with you, about another teenage pregnancy. Please although, lend me your ears… I waited about two weeks to tell my mother, hoping for support. I was shunned away from my loved ones. I nonetheless live here, but I can’t see my own grandmother and take portion in such activities. Quick foward a couple of Thursdays and I was at the women’s clinic of my city. Not for the actual abortion to take location, but for paper work. As I was writing down what was needed, I had to circle “NO” for the question “Has everyone pressured you into getting an abortion” since I did not want to upset my mother.
I have been avoiding the abortion appointment because I hope that it will be too late and I can lastly receive my miracle ♥ Nicely, two weeks ago I had to go and get my ID which was needed for the appointment. I went. My boyfriends mother dropped me off at my mother’s office and as she was pulling in, I forgot to grab my ID. I did not do that on purpose, I forgot about the whole ID, and my mind was focused on the July fourth weekend. I touch my baby everyday, I tell him/her “I adore you” each and every day and I cherish each and every minute I have with my baby..it pains me so of getting to have a mother who does not want anything to do with it. She stated that I have no say in this, due to the fact it wouldn’t matter, I would be a terrible mother, it is an act of wrong performing. I told her that I did not want this, and she is nonetheless forcing it upon me. As considerably as I want to stand up for myself, which I have prior to, I am afraid of letting her down like the rest of my family. I try so challenging for my baby to live, I ask her to spare its life. Its my child, the 1 I have been wanting all of these years. The piece to make my heart total, but I cannot even have the 1 thing in the Planet that will make me, have a real smile on my face. I am fourteen weeks in, and I have been attached considering that day 1. Now, you may feel that fourteen weeks is too late and that is has had a beating heart since week five/6, that my mother would change her mind, but that just is not so. She has set up an appointment in Gainesville, just so she can make her image appear excellent, her buddies would feel highly of her, and that she has saved my life.
She might feel that she would save my life, but it will have the opposite impact. I do not know how I would really feel right after this. I am afraid to really feel that emptiness..I cry everyday for my baby due to the fact all of my buddies(except two, my family members want it dead and there is absolutely nothing I can do it about it….which i have tried….
please help me…my baby is the size of a lemon..and I am so close to locating out the gender,

I do not know what to do. I want to keep it, of course, I just wish, somebody, somebody out there could help me…im afraid of becoming bulimic once once more, to feel like I am worthless,
please someone help me.
It’s a lengthy drive home from Gainesville and I will really feel so guilty for having this abortion. I do not want it at all, and I have sttod up for myself, but I guess it wasn’t enough. Properly, at least my mother will be pleased..

Answer by mommy
1st off, I think that your very brave to be telling everyone this, properly I dont believe in abortion, and I feel that you mom is caring far more about her image than how you really feel towards your child. I think that if you want to maintain your baby that do, you can get assist other locations, and your mom cant make you have an abortion since whilst you are seventeen you are concided an adult whilst becoming pregnant its your choose, possibly your boyfriend and his family can support you just please keep your baby and if you cant support him/her do an open adoption than you will still be able to see him/her but him/her will nonetheless have the life that each and every baby deserves